ME BEING STUPID PLAYING IN THE HELLO KITTY SECTION AT SEPHORA LMAO O_o

Was angry for a second there but im over it now lol moving along....=D

      ITS SUX HOW PEOPLE DO GOOD PEOPLE DIRTY AND JUST KEEP LIEING AND LIEING OVER AND OVER AGAIN SMFH. I DONT THINK ILL EVER TRUST ANOTHER HUMAN BEING EVER AGAIN!
     NOT TO TOOT MY OWN HORN BUT....... IM THE WHOLE PACKAGE! WHY WOULD ANYONE WANNA DO ME WRONG??? O_o ........ IM CUTE, INTELLIGENT, GOOD SENSE OF HUMOR (EVEN IF ITS CORNY) LOL, IM THOUGHTFUL, HONEST AND FAITHFUL. I THINK IM A CATCH ;).... BUT ANYWYAZZZZZ....... UR STUPID! :)

Without music, my heart would forever be crushed! Music is my heart my soul, and lets me keep my sanity. Music is the only thing that will never leave me nor break my heart......I am forever in love with music ♥ 

                                                                                   Lisa D....

In love with her quotes!

"This life is what you make it. Not matter what, you're going to mess up sometimes, it's a universal truth. But the good part is you get to decide how you're going to mess it up. Girls will be your friends - they'll act like it anyway. But just remember, some come, some go. The ones that stay with you through everything - they're your true best friends. Don't let go of them. Also remember, sisters make the best friends in the world. As for lovers, well, they'll come and go too. And babe, I hate to say it, most of them - actually pretty much all of them are going to break your heart, but you can't give up becuase if you give up, you'll never find your soul mate. You'll never find that half who makes you whole and that goes for everything. Just because you fail once, doesn't mean you're gonna fail at everything. Keep trying, hold on, and always, always, always believe in yourself, because if you don't, then who will, sweetie? So keep your head high, keep your chin up, and most importantly, keep smiling, because life's a beautiful thing and there's so much to smile about." 
— Marilyn Monroe

"I am good, but not an angel. I do sin, but I am not the devil. I am just a small girl in a big world trying to find someone to love." 
— Marilyn Monroe

nobody knows but... I love Marilyn Monroe!

"I'm selfish, impatient and a little insecure. I make mistakes, I am out of control and at times hard to handle. But if you can't handle me at my worst, then you sure as hell don't deserve me at my best."
— Marilyn Monroe

I Love this song.... "Castle Walls"

"Nobody knows I'm all alone
Living in this castle made of stone
They say that money is freedom but I feel trapped inside it all
And while I sit so high up on a throne
I wonder how I can feel this low
On top of the world it's beautiful
But there's no place to fall"
                                [Christina Aguilera]

"Everyone thinks that I have it all
But it's so empty living behind these castle walls
If I should tumble if I should fall
Would any one hear me screaming behind these castle walls
There's no-one here at all, behind these castle walls"

                                                  [Christina Aguilera]

"Just because her eyes don't tear doesn't mean her heart doesn't cry. And just because she comes off strong, doesn't mean there's nothing wrong"

A poem that I like alot.....

I am I
Do not change me,condemn me,
Nor put me down

Accept me for what I am
No...you need not agree with me
But accept me.

For I am total in being
I have my faults, I have my guilts
But that is who I am.
Perfect I will never be.

Allow me to be uninhabited.
Do not pressure me into feeling
What I do not feel.

Accept me when I am flying high
As I have accepted you
When you were flying high.

Do not put me down...
Nor make me feel unhappy about me.
I am I
And like being what I am
Me
-Larry S. Chengges

You know what SUCKS... To hold everything in and to break down at the wrong place and moment. Yea I did that at my job and it made it seem like they made me cry but I just never told them the real reason behind it. They don't need to be in my business or my thoughts. Yea I did lead them to believe they were breaking me down but the fact was they just caught me at the wrong moment and on the worst day ever :/. I honestly didn't care at the fact that I cried at that moment. The only thing I could say that slightly bothered me was the fact that because I cried, I know they got satisfaction out of it. But I use the term of slightly caring because it only makes them weak. If they need to see someone break down to feel superior, then that just makes them overall WEAKER then me, the person who broke down and showed real emotion in front of people and you know what... I DIDN'T CARE!

Have you ever took a step back and for a moment just took a glance at your life? I have and the visual I see isn't what I want my life to be. As a child you never know or think how life,the real world really is. You don't know any better when you are young. You just worry about the next party your going to or which friend your going to hang out with next. Life is not a walk in the park and when you get older, it is then you realize what it's all really about. First it comes college, then it come choices we make, and then bills. Whether we want to except it or not this is what life is about. We have to go through all of these things to get what we really want out of life.

When I think... I get into deep thought, when I'm in deep thought I get lost, I get lost because I get caught up on everything inside my head. My thoughts drive me crazy, they make me sad n then mad, I get annoyed then I get glad.. My thoughts are just a constant vicious circle that will never stop. 

Sometimes I don't know what to do because many people say I am always angry. Once something gets me upset I feel angry for a long period of time. Sometimes I think I have anger issues but its just when I am upset i need time to cool off. I find it difficult to just get over things like most people because I don't like to pretend like everything is okay and that I am over something that is still bothering me.  I can never understand how people get upset and then just brush things off as if nothing has upset them. For me, I feel like if I was to do that i'd just be lying to myself.
Today was a very weird day for me. I woke up in a good mood but then was not in such a good mood a bit later because of certain things that occurred. My day got  a little better when I went o the Jerry Springer show. Being there lightened my mood and I enjoyed myself there. It was fun watching people make idiots of themselves. For some reason after that was over my mood went from happy, to not so happy, to nonchalant, to angry. Once my mood changes I really never want to change it because my mind is made up. As of right now me sitting here writing this my mood is still the same frame and I wish I could cheer up but there are a lot of things lingering in my mind. Maybe when I go to sleep and my dreams take my night away ill be able to wake up fresh and feel good about everything again.

Most of the time people ask me why I never talk about things or why i'm so closed out to the world. There are many reasons behind me not not sharing what goes on inside my head or how I feel. The very few times that I have taken the chance to ope up to someone they make me completely regret thinking they were going to keep my thoughts and feelings as if they were their own like i do. A lot of times when i try to talk to someone they take it as me complaining. I don't understand the fact of people telling me i need to open up just to not listen like they said they would or tell me I need to get over it. Many people say that its unhealthy to keep all your thoughts to yourself but I find its the best thing to do is keep it all inside because if there's no one else but you that knows on what's going on in your head then there.s nothing to worry about.
Im the type of person that holds grudges and if i'm not able to fix the problem when I try to it'll only make things worse. It'll make me keep thinking about it and make me want to bring it up and address the situation again until I get the result that I want. It really bothers me when a person doesn't care about the fact that i'm taking the the time out to address a situation.