I Love this song.... "Castle Walls"

"Nobody knows I'm all alone
Living in this castle made of stone
They say that money is freedom but I feel trapped inside it all
And while I sit so high up on a throne
I wonder how I can feel this low
On top of the world it's beautiful
But there's no place to fall"
                                [Christina Aguilera]

"Everyone thinks that I have it all
But it's so empty living behind these castle walls
If I should tumble if I should fall
Would any one hear me screaming behind these castle walls
There's no-one here at all, behind these castle walls"

                                                  [Christina Aguilera]

"Just because her eyes don't tear doesn't mean her heart doesn't cry. And just because she comes off strong, doesn't mean there's nothing wrong"

A poem that I like alot.....

I am I
Do not change me,condemn me,
Nor put me down

Accept me for what I am
No...you need not agree with me
But accept me.

For I am total in being
I have my faults, I have my guilts
But that is who I am.
Perfect I will never be.

Allow me to be uninhabited.
Do not pressure me into feeling
What I do not feel.

Accept me when I am flying high
As I have accepted you
When you were flying high.

Do not put me down...
Nor make me feel unhappy about me.
I am I
And like being what I am
Me
-Larry S. Chengges

You know what SUCKS... To hold everything in and to break down at the wrong place and moment. Yea I did that at my job and it made it seem like they made me cry but I just never told them the real reason behind it. They don't need to be in my business or my thoughts. Yea I did lead them to believe they were breaking me down but the fact was they just caught me at the wrong moment and on the worst day ever :/. I honestly didn't care at the fact that I cried at that moment. The only thing I could say that slightly bothered me was the fact that because I cried, I know they got satisfaction out of it. But I use the term of slightly caring because it only makes them weak. If they need to see someone break down to feel superior, then that just makes them overall WEAKER then me, the person who broke down and showed real emotion in front of people and you know what... I DIDN'T CARE!

Have you ever took a step back and for a moment just took a glance at your life? I have and the visual I see isn't what I want my life to be. As a child you never know or think how life,the real world really is. You don't know any better when you are young. You just worry about the next party your going to or which friend your going to hang out with next. Life is not a walk in the park and when you get older, it is then you realize what it's all really about. First it comes college, then it come choices we make, and then bills. Whether we want to except it or not this is what life is about. We have to go through all of these things to get what we really want out of life.

When I think... I get into deep thought, when I'm in deep thought I get lost, I get lost because I get caught up on everything inside my head. My thoughts drive me crazy, they make me sad n then mad, I get annoyed then I get glad.. My thoughts are just a constant vicious circle that will never stop.